I WAS ALL ALONE
My husband thought I was being lazy. My friends thought I was over-reacting. My family thought I was just plain nuts. I ate well. I exercised. I did all the right things, but I was still miserable and I didn’t know why!?! I hurt from doing simple things like carrying a chair to watch my son play baseball or cleaning the counter. My elbows, my wrists, my shoulders….they were always the worst.
The dull ache, the throbbing….all day…all night. And, the exhaustion…there are no words for it.
This is my story.
I’m Not Overreacting
Slowly one by one they started adding up over the years. I have been diagnosed with FIVE autoimmune diseases. Well, I really don’t know for sure. My Doctors were contradicting each other, so it could be 3, or 4….or 5 depending on which Dr you ask.
In 1995, after my son was born, I noticed these small white patches on my elbows. They were more annoying than anything. I ignored it for several years not realizing it was Psoriasis.
In 1997, I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. Back then, if they didn’t know why you hurt, this is the catch-all diagnosis you were given. I was told there was nothing they could do for me. They put me on Mobic. I hated it. It turned me into a walking zombie.
In 2006, after a miscarriage, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. I worried I would not be able to have more children. I was put on birth control. I was hurt. I was angry at the world.
In 2008, after my last child was born, my thyroid went berserk. Diagnosed with Autoimmune Thyroiditis. I have a few nodules to go along with it and have trouble swallowing…not fun. I was put on Synthroid. Fast forward to 2017, my doctor diagnosed with me with Hashimoto’s and told me there was nothing she could do for me. I knew she was wrong. A second opinion confirmed my gut feeling, I did not. Now, I am confused and frustrated.
In 2015, I was also told I have Insulin Resistance Syndrome. I did monitor my blood sugar with a monitor. After research and self-journaling, I realized I had dawn phenomenon. My doctor disagreed. She wanted me to go on Metformin. I politely declined.
In Spring 2015 & again in Spring 2016, stress got the best of me. I would get extremely exhausted (understatement). I would spike a fever and my heart rate would be in the 90’s. I was so tired I could barely talk or walk, or even breathe. Then just like that, I would return to normal for a few days, then BAMN. It would cycle like this for 8 weeks! 2 good days, 1 meh day, 3 days of holy hell, then 1 day of meh >>> repeat.
I scared my husband and baffled every doctor I saw. I was a mystery with near perfect labs. Then one day it would just disappear.
In Fall of 2016, the stress caused Psoriasis had spread to my face. It was the most painful thing I have ever experienced. Blisters on top of blisters, raw red, and burning skin. Not to mention embarrassing!! My doctor put me on a CHEMOTHERAPY medication. I had not done enough research to know any better. I needed this off of my face. So, I reluctantly took the drug.
This was my turning point.
SOMETHING NEEDED TO CHANGE
What was healthy for everyone else, was not working for me. I knew alternative health, I lived it for the most part, for years, so why was I getting worse and worse. I followed the ‘rules’ and I was still a hot mess. I needed know WHY and how to fix it.
I dove headfirst into reading and researching everything I could get my hands on that related to my issues. Case studies, the holistic experts, going back to school. Reaching out to others who are going through what I am going through. I know I am not the only one. At first, all this learning was for my own benefit. Then I started talking to people more about what I was learning. I did countless of self-experiments. Some were amazing, others, not so much. I didn’t really care what worked for everyone else if it didn’t work for me, it was a no-go. I am working with a new Dr. He is on board with me getting off all medications and doing this thru food & wellness.
With this new found set of ‘rules’ for being healthy, I was able to share with my husband, friends, and family. Slowly, they started to have understanding and compassion. A few have made lifestyle changes and are on their own road to wellness. My husband is now my rock and life would not be as glorious without him there to keep me grounded and sane.
Can I hear a HECK YEAH!?
My health has significantly improved…
“With the guidance, encouragement, and knowledge from Nicole, I have been able to successfully get my life back, and lose 15lbs in the process! As a mom of 3 girls, I feel like I am in the best shape of my life both mentally and physically as I approach my 40’s.” -Sarrah